April 12th, 2010
Waiting. Have I mentioned that I hate waiting? Well, I do. I dread waiting, and I'll tell you why: people are lazy. Simple! People are lazy, and most of all useless. The time it takes two people to complete one simple task, can be done by another in less time. If you don't believe me, take a good look around you. I mean, really take a look and observe people. Most of them have no reason, common sense. Most of them are selfish, not sympathetic. Why? Because they simply don't care. They don't care about others, specially when you put your fate in their hands.
This past week has been probably one of the hardest. I spent most of it working on overdrive just to keep my head above water, but most of it, I spent waiting. Waiting for this one person to determine one very big decision that would affect my reality as it is and possibly change it to what it could be, or better said, could have been. Of course, it ended up being the latter. Sounds negative, I'm well aware of that, but at this point in time I simply just don't care. See, it's just a testament to how things have always presented themselves. Never easy, always hard. The part that I don't understand is: why?
Not to sound like a victim here, I know I'm not, but sometimes I wonder why is it that the people that are the most ungrateful in life get everything they want and not what they need?
I've been in deep though about this for the past week or so. Observing people around me, observing myself. I feel like I can't win at times. I never get what I need, for the most part. However, the things that I do get, mean the world to me and I'm so grateful for them, but it all comes at a price. You always have to give up one thing to get something in return. This is a theory I've been working on, so bare with me while I try to get my point across. It seems to me that when you work really hard to get something that you really need, it never fails to surprise me that something pops out of nowhere to wake me up and tell me "hey, you're not gonna get it!" This is highly frustrating...grrrr. Everything is a battle, nothing can be given and everything has to be earned. Ever wondered why this only happens to some people only? I have, and it all seems unfair. But who said life is fair? It isn't, or maybe it is…
Maybe we're more fortunate in other ways. Maybe life unfolds in a way that is not meant to be understood. Maybe it gives us the illusion that it isn't fair when in reality everything that happens to us, in one way or another, is a reaction of a previous action done by none other than ourselves. I've been pondering this. Some people call it faith, other's call it luck, I call it karma.
I guess we're not meant to know the truth until we're older. I've come to find that things become clearer once they come to pass. So I'll do what I do best, I'll be patient, I'll have faith, I'll have luck and I'll keep my karma in check. We'll see what happens, because this too shall pass…
Until Then...
Waiting. Have I mentioned that I hate waiting? Well, I do. I dread waiting, and I'll tell you why: people are lazy. Simple! People are lazy, and most of all useless. The time it takes two people to complete one simple task, can be done by another in less time. If you don't believe me, take a good look around you. I mean, really take a look and observe people. Most of them have no reason, common sense. Most of them are selfish, not sympathetic. Why? Because they simply don't care. They don't care about others, specially when you put your fate in their hands.
This past week has been probably one of the hardest. I spent most of it working on overdrive just to keep my head above water, but most of it, I spent waiting. Waiting for this one person to determine one very big decision that would affect my reality as it is and possibly change it to what it could be, or better said, could have been. Of course, it ended up being the latter. Sounds negative, I'm well aware of that, but at this point in time I simply just don't care. See, it's just a testament to how things have always presented themselves. Never easy, always hard. The part that I don't understand is: why?
Not to sound like a victim here, I know I'm not, but sometimes I wonder why is it that the people that are the most ungrateful in life get everything they want and not what they need?
I've been in deep though about this for the past week or so. Observing people around me, observing myself. I feel like I can't win at times. I never get what I need, for the most part. However, the things that I do get, mean the world to me and I'm so grateful for them, but it all comes at a price. You always have to give up one thing to get something in return. This is a theory I've been working on, so bare with me while I try to get my point across. It seems to me that when you work really hard to get something that you really need, it never fails to surprise me that something pops out of nowhere to wake me up and tell me "hey, you're not gonna get it!" This is highly frustrating...grrrr. Everything is a battle, nothing can be given and everything has to be earned. Ever wondered why this only happens to some people only? I have, and it all seems unfair. But who said life is fair? It isn't, or maybe it is…
Maybe we're more fortunate in other ways. Maybe life unfolds in a way that is not meant to be understood. Maybe it gives us the illusion that it isn't fair when in reality everything that happens to us, in one way or another, is a reaction of a previous action done by none other than ourselves. I've been pondering this. Some people call it faith, other's call it luck, I call it karma.
I guess we're not meant to know the truth until we're older. I've come to find that things become clearer once they come to pass. So I'll do what I do best, I'll be patient, I'll have faith, I'll have luck and I'll keep my karma in check. We'll see what happens, because this too shall pass…
Until Then...
