What A Night For A Dance, Yeah You Know I'm A Dancing Machine...

March 11th, 2012

I will start this post by saying that I am old. I mean, right about now I'm feeling like I am maybe, hmmmmmmmmm, 65. I'm pretty sure this is what 65 feels like. Yes! This is it: like crap.

In an effort to socialize and hang out with a lovely friend, I decided to go out last night. I mean, where's the harm in that? I go out, grab a table at this place, eat, have a few drinks, have great conversation and listen to live music. It sounds like my idea of a fun night! Well, you would think that, except we forgot one minor detail: its Spring Break. (*Sigh). Don't get me wrong, it was a lot of fun. But it also made me realize that it's been a long time since 22.

I started the night just like any other night: I got excited, picked an outfit, make up and hair, jewelry and to top it off, a splash of Chanel. I didn't really feel like going out, but being that I just dyed my hair, it made for an excellent excuse (don't you think?). Anywayssss, back to the story (talk in circles)- as we made our way into the place, I noticed there was a bigger crowd than I expected. I immediately turned to ask my boyfriend, What's going on? Which, with a baffled look on his face, he politely answered, Baby it's Spring Break! (*Grunt). In my head, I decided to make the best of it. (My body didn't).

As the night continued, more and more people got there. I was by myself for a good hour, so I ordered a margarita and sat down to people watch (my favorite hobby at bars). My observations? Why yes, here they are:

• Girls seem to have lost their inhibitions in this generation. It's really just missing from their genes.
• People should not fist pump in public.
• Playing air guitar or pretending that you are playing an instrument as you sing along and dance is a major NO NO.
• You should really not follow trends, but wear what looks good on your body. 
• Some people really should not dance in public.
• Some people really should not go out in public.
• Singing a song really loud that you don't know the lyrics to make you look like a dumbass.
• Getting up on stage and dancing next to the band = LAME.
• Resolving situations by yelling, SHOTS!!!
• Hitting on women who are obviously way above you in every aspect of life.

I really hope I didn't look that stupid when I was in college. Truth is, I've always loved music, so I would always be that girl standing in front of the band (who usually were my friends) singing and dancing (properly) with my girlfriends. We never offended anyone, crossed the line or acted like whores. We simply just enjoyed each other's company and at the end of the night, we would always have new stories to share. 

As I look back today on last night's events, it really makes me happy to know that I lived that "college experience" that everyone should really have: I stayed up 'till the Sun came up, smoked, drank, danced, did sleep overs, ate at Denny's at 3 am, got my friends into trouble, picked up guy's numbers and never called them, etc. BUT, as much as I loved that experience, 7 years later I am looking forward to going into my 30's in 2 years. Every woman that I know who's lived through them tell me they are the best years a woman could have. So I'm looking forward to seeing what all the fuzz is about. 

Until Then...

I'm A Dagger And A Shield...

April 12th, 2010

Waiting. Have I mentioned that I hate waiting? Well, I do. I dread waiting, and I'll tell you why: people are lazy. Simple! People are lazy, and most of all useless. The time it takes two people to complete one simple task, can be done by another in less time. If you don't believe me, take a good look around you. I mean, really take a look and observe people. Most of them have no reason, common sense. Most of them are selfish, not sympathetic. Why? Because they simply don't care. They don't care about others, specially when you put your fate in their hands.

This past week has been probably one of the hardest. I spent most of it working on overdrive just to keep my head above water, but most of it, I spent waiting. Waiting for this one person to determine one very big decision that would affect my reality as it is and possibly change it to what it could be, or better said, could have been. Of course, it ended up being the latter. Sounds negative, I'm well aware of that, but at this point in time I simply just don't care. See, it's just a testament to how things have always presented themselves. Never easy, always hard. The part that I don't understand is: why?

Not to sound like a victim here, I know I'm not, but sometimes I wonder why is it that the people that are the most ungrateful in life get everything they want and not what they need?

I've been in deep though about this for the past week or so. Observing people around me, observing myself. I feel like I can't win at times. I never get what I need, for the most part. However, the things that I do get, mean the world to me and I'm so grateful for them, but it all comes at a price. You always have to give up one thing to get something in return. This is a theory I've been working on, so bare with me while I try to get my point across. It seems to me that when you work really hard to get something that you really need, it never fails to surprise me that something pops out of nowhere to wake me up and tell me "hey, you're not gonna get it!" This is highly frustrating...grrrr. Everything is a battle, nothing can be given and everything has to be earned. Ever wondered why this only happens to some people only? I have, and it all seems unfair. But who said life is fair? It isn't, or maybe it is…

Maybe we're more fortunate in other ways. Maybe life unfolds in a way that is not meant to be understood. Maybe it gives us the illusion that it isn't fair when in reality everything that happens to us, in one way or another, is a reaction of a previous action done by none other than ourselves. I've been pondering this. Some people call it faith, other's call it luck, I call it karma.

I guess we're not meant to know the truth until we're older. I've come to find that things become clearer once they come to pass. So I'll do what I do best, I'll be patient, I'll have faith, I'll have luck and I'll keep my karma in check. We'll see what happens, because this too shall pass…


Until Then...